Dream on

Now i know the true meaning of the Kiss of Death.

Dont you love it when the girl you like says she practically never liked you through out the whole time you guys had a thing? wooooooorrrrrddddddd. 

i like this girl. i like her alot. we had a few dates and they were great. i thought she really really like me too. but as soon as one of her x’s start talking to her again she gets those feelings for him back. and now im left in the fucking dust. FUCK relationships. i think if she decides to see him and talk to him again i quit. i quit. i quit. Fuck me and my more romantic side, easily falling for a girl like a fucking idiot just to get fucked over. of fucking course. always happens to me. i really hopes she sees that i like her and would treat her better. but she is young and i want a serious relationship. so i guess i will go with it and see how it plays out. if the hand is against me in this game of cards then i quit and i will never date a girl from my town or anyone for that matter for a long time. FML

Anonymous asked: Are you really a bird? YES

all night i tell myself to kiss her, kiss her, kiss her. then the time comes, i look at her from the car. i get out with her to hop in shotgun with Brian, and she turns around before she leaves the driveway, and all i say is good night. good fucking night. that is it. and i say happy easter too. i sat down and as she walked into her house i wanted to slam my head into the window. jesus why cant i be the man that i want to be, the man that can go after the girl, grab her arm and kiss her like i wanted to?

why does liking someone have to come with the feeling that they dont like you? god do i wish i could just know.